now you get what you want

i want to know this stuff

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 04:49:28 GMT

just do it and make me happy (everyone needs cheering up}

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you go out with me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?"

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 04:44:34 GMT

1. My name:
2. Your Name:
2. Where did we meet?:
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me?:
5. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?:
6. Do I smoke?:
7. What's my favorite color?:
8. When you first saw me what was your first impression?
9. My age?:
10. My birthday?:
11. Color Hair?:
12. Color eyes?:
13. Have you ever had a crush on me?
14. Have you ever been jealous of me?
15. What's one of my fav things to do indoors?:
16. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met?
17. What's my fav type of music?:
18. What's one of my fav things to do outdoors?:
19. Am I crazy or not so weird?
20. Would you say I'm funny HAHA or funny (sarcastic)?:
21. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?:
22. Would you consider me a friend?:
23. Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, snobby, or something else?:
24. Have you ever seen me cry?:
25. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?
26. Are my parents still together?:
27. Do I have a nice smile?
28. If I had broccoli stuck on my teeth, would you tell me?
29. Do you love me?

AM I.... ?!?!?!?
31. Talkative or Silent?
31. Short or Tall:
32. Weird or original:
33. Smart or stupid?
34. Boring or Fun?
35. Attractive or Unattractive?

DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u want to say something extra say it)
36. A psycho?
38. Athlethic?
39. A nerd?
41. Ghetto?
42. In need of mental help?
43. Two-faced?
44. Obnoxious?
45. Immature?
46. Mature?

JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS
47. What do you think I'll be when I grow up?
48. A) Do you think I'll get married?
B) If you do. Who do you think I'll marry?
49. Do you think I’ll be known someday?
50. Who is my best friend?
51. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
52. Do I remind you of any characters on TV?
53. If you could rename me, what would my name be?
54. Have you ever had a dream about me?
55. A feature that you like about me:
56. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
57. Is this just another stupid questionnaire that people post?
58. Am I stupid?
59. Would you ever help me in a time of need?
60. Would you ever consider being my friend?
61. Do you ever think about "us"(friends, relationship, etc..)?
62. If we spent a day together...where would we go and what would we do?
63. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be?
64. Do you think of me as a) retarded or b) not retarded?
65. Do I act weird?
66. What word do I say all the time?
67. Is there anything you'd like to say to me?

whatever, just saw it, thought id add it by the way i erased some of the original dumb qestions and just made some on my own... but WHATEVER do it if u want

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 04:31:03 GMT

i think i need a variety of people in my life, so uhm, i should like, start meeting people again... and thats the semi hard part, because i know so many people from monroe to, east, to port huron. west to about... uhmmm... muskegon i think is the most west... idk and north to about.... imlay city, and i don't wanna drive that far to hang out with new people.... damnit i can't wait to goto florida.

if you have anyone that you think would be a good friend of mine give them my sn.... buddhistways.... thats about all now, i should stop typing.

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 05:19:40 GMT

Your Birthdate: March 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene.

The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher.

You are very responsible and capable.

This is an attractive and an attracting influence.

You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it.

You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research.

You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes.

This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup.

You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 05:16:35 GMT

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 04:58:18 GMT

I am sorry for what I have done, but there is no use to look back, its already over. Lets just forgive and forget and carry out this brotherhood. I didn't know it would make you that mad, if I would have known this before hand, this wouldn't have gone the way it did.

To everyone else I have let down, hurt, betrayed, tormented, or anything less then torture to: I am sorry, I never ment to do that, please forgive me and lets just move on from it.

A good friend can tell you what is the matter with you in a minute. He
may not seem such a good friend after telling.

Arthur Brisbane, "The Book of Today"

long time old friend

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 01:16:55 GMT

a long time since i talked on this thing so lets get down to business... nothing has changed sept for more guitar playing and no working....blah...update later when i feel like typing.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 04:23:18 GMT

the great buddha once said:

The thought manifests as the word; The word manifests as the deed; The deed develops into habit; And habit hardens into character. So watch the thought and its ways with care, And let it spring from love Born out of concern for all beings.

Mahatma Gandi said:

It is better to be violent, if there is violence in our hearts, than to put on the cloak of nonviolence to cover impotence.

with this I say we are not all perfect, people say I lie, but who doesn't. I don't lie, however, on what I think, what I feel. Maybe its everything getting to me, but, doesn't it seem when you need the most affection, people give you the most rejection, you can feel it, in their smile, the way they talk. how they move on to someone else, how they always ask you for nothing but answers to a question or a ride somewhere but the swear they have the money, just not on them. I'm sick of being lied to when I'm being truthful, I'm so damned exhausted of trying to please friends, giving 100%, just because they mean that much to me, and they don't put anything in. You guys don't ask really if I want to hang out, call me, show you care for me like i do you. so i think i'm making up a new policy, i leave everyone alone, i don't talk to anyone, and you talk to me. sound good? great! i start it when you im me and tell me so,

how can i try to be one with the universe when many are so angry?

tim

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 20:40:36 GMT

i don't know anymore... who likes me and who i like... if people are honest or they take my trust for granted, so, with that... leave a comment, anonomously... tell me something, a truth that you lied about
or maybe...just tell me anything, what you think of me and what not... just do it

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 04:47:42 GMT

it will be my birthday in four days,

18th birthday...

i don't want it to come.

you see, this is the first birthday of mine without my grandparents, it feels so empty right now, i can't begin to describe it. i need someone here to hold me right now, but, nope. and i just got off the phone with liz, and she didn't seem too thrilled to be talking to me... kinda meanish to be frank... which brought down my whole happiness ( or lack thereof) down that much more... yet i put on a mask and a smile and continue on... why? i've had writers block since grandpa died, why? i have so many thoughts rushing through but no way to get them out, they stay locked in my head... unreachable by anything, tangable or intangable... and no one is really talkin to me in school, chelsie ignores me, i don't like that at all... but yeah, i don't care about that, i just care about that whole thing with the grandparents...

too emotionally drained to finish

(crying too much)

WOOOT

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 19:48:07 GMT

so i don't know what to write in detail so i'll just tell you the major things the i'll tell you how good or bad they are

met liz n shtuff= really good

cd burner broke= sucks ass

cleaned room = makes me sad

played guitar = always amazing relief

missed grandparents = sucks

went to florida to check out the college and disney world = undescribible

blamed canada = cuz i can

that whole chelsie situation = lets not go there

got elected for best personality = didn't see it coming

got milk? = mm hm

can you hear me now ? good.

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 03:59:05 GMT

sorry i haven't updated in a while... didn't see the point n too busy, but heres the downlow: schools goin good and i think somethings testing me to see if i can be alone and be happy, so i'll ride this phase out... i find so much beautiful now, every one is so nice... i hung out with steph and adya... that was awsome... i love adya so much, and i haven't talked to steph for a while, it was nice to see her, when i droped steph off and turned the corner i had to pull over for a minute, cuz it hit me i'm not gonna have many more of these times left with the people i love and know so very well, why it hit me right then, i will never know... but it did and it put my life in perspective... all these dreams coming true... then it hit me later on that night that i couldn't talk to my grandparents about it, and that made me cry, i miss them so much that it hurts so badly... well its late, i have to wake up early goto school then pack for florida, have fun everyone

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 05:49:00 GMT

huked on fonix es foer beghinnres HOKAAYY

quick update...

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 03:37:14 GMT

Today was very interesting and at the end, fun. First, school - Frida, Marvin, Leethon, Kris, Chelsea, and Brandon and I got in a snowball fight during lunch, it was so great and it brought up all of our spirits, I felt it brought us all together and it brought us even greater respect for eachother, now I feel like I'm not going to school, I'm just going to my second home to my second family, one with different races and nationalities, beliefs and languages, not to forget culture. After that I Went to the mall with Adya, Chelsea, and Josh, we met Stephine for a few minutes... God she is cute, but, from what I hear, she has a boyfriend so yeah, more loneliness for Timmy. She gave me her number, and I'm excited to talk to her because she seems really awsome, but I'm not getting my hopes up. Anywho... After that we went to Adya's house and just straight chilled like the pimps we are. Then, the night had to end, so I took Chelsea and Josh and myself back to our houses, listened to music, took a shower, and bam, I write in this here journal, but I seriously love every one of my friends, classmates, people I haven't met yet, they are like family to me, I know I can trust them, and I know, especially with Josh, Adya and Chelsea... I am so lucky to have the friends I have, but some hole, somewhere deep in my soul, screams for something like a love, not a friendly love, but love that I can get completely wrapped up in... But oh well...

ahem....

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 01:23:45 GMT

well, what can i say about lately... this christmas...sucked... this christmas break, however, awsome. i hung out with a lot of people, chelsea, angela, ally, tiffany, josh, andrea, alex, some kids not cool enough to mention... dave, ummm jess, i met a girl named stephanie ( yes, thats right, another one) and a couple others, i did lotsa stuff, got a lot of great presents, had the break of a life time... tell me what you guys wanna hear about and i'll tell you in my later update...

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 03:45:30 GMT

This Christmas is gonna suck on so many levels, number one is the obvious one, no grandparents at the get together, that does not need an explanation. Two is the whole me being not myself lately, I mean I talk but not as much, and not like I used to, it kinda feels like I'm slipping back again but at the same time not. And that does affect the third reason why this Christmas is gonna suck. No one special to share it with, not girl to sit right by me, talk to me, hold me, and everyone thinks I go for who gives out easiest but thats not important to me right now, I just want someone to hold n cuddle, and, more then not, cry to. Its getting old crying on a pillow, or talking to yourself to calm you down... :/ ... I know I sound like I'm complaining, but if you know me you know I don't unless its REALLY REALLY bothering me. But I haven't had a girlfriend since...lets see... Laura... and that was... June? July maybe? And that was just more like two friends makin out, so it kinda doesn't count, so rewind that to... PAM.. yip yip... and that was not good, lemmie tell you that right now, and that was in maybe 2003... so I haven't had a kiss in 4 months, the hm hm in a good year maybe, and haven't cuddled in like... 3 months... but i'm done with sex, i kinda don't want to do it anymore, i want to make love, be romantic, but i want to wait till i find that special someone, someone who makes me want to be a better me in a deep way...

other then that, i've been hanging out with Adya more and more, just something about her flashes good friend... i mean i've known her for what, shiznet i have no idea, and she turns out to be pretty damn cool, and i feel we share a connection, not like two lovers or whatever but as two friends, i know we basically went through the same stuff... in general, and yeah. i feel like she's the lil sister i've always wanted, i mean the kind of lil sister that you hang with and teach stuff... like guitar, and you do stuff together, like bake cookies and just be silly with...

and stephine, lets not touch on that subject right now...

oh yeah and the song i've been making... i started it the day my grandma died, its very close to me, this project is my baby, i've been through 112 ruff drafts, give or take... and things are still changing, i add so much stuff into it, so far its around 7 1/2 minutes long but i feel this one will be around half an hour long, theres just that much emotion in it, it can't be done in a regular 6 minute song... and i'm debating whether to add lyrics or a second guitar... well... sorry about all this, i had to get it out. . .

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lets hear it for Adya Ree Laba, the newest addition to the Guitarist secret circle :pause for awes:

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 03:55:07 GMT

Today I began teaching Adya Ree Laba, yes I said, and I shall say it again I began teaching Adya Ree Laba, 16 of Warren Mi, how to play guitar, quite frankly she's hot with a guitar :-D but I taught her the bare BARE basics, but she's like me so she needs to learn little by little to master this craft... she'll be the next good girl guitarist... if you think shes hot without a guitar lemmie tell ya...put a guitar in her lap and you wanna jump her faster then a fat man chasing a ice cream truck... whew

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At Joshs being beat with a oatmeal packet ::hits me in the eye:: FUCK

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 21:22:23 GMT

ow ow ow, i didn't know that oatmeal packets hurt like this much like a mutha... a OW... haven't talked to stephanie in like tree days, she prolly hooked up with yuri... so oh well - - - (hena hena hena)i feel like speaking to you in morse code --___--_____-_______________ FUCK i can't do that.... i'm not a morse code professionale,

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last day of school for two f-ckin weeks...rock on

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 21:00:20 GMT

Well today was the last day of school before Holiday break!! It was great!! Everyone was nice, and I found out that Frida, Paige and some others want to do me now after they heard me play guitar in 6th hour... And that made me smile, but I don't wanna do that with them... too good of friends, ummm thats all I can think of.... OH yea i have nothin to do this break but teach peeps guitar so if you wanna chill just tell me atheistways666

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The day I won't forget

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 01:03:22 GMT

Today I was driving in the back of C.V.S. when something caught my eye, a homeless man laying by the dumpster, next to him was a sign will work for food - you know me... I stopped and I took him into that subway right by where he was laying and I bought him dinner with the money I saved up for gas, he was a nice guy, name was charles, I offered him more money for food later but, he said no. It made me think about a lot of things... What happened to him to make him homeless was the first thought, but then I went into deep thinking nerdy me, and here are some questions I asked myself... maybe you know....

Why, how can we as a society allow such atrocities to occur without a care? Apathy must be catchy these days.

Why do we see more commercials for so many out of the way countries when so many people in AMERICA are SUFFERING, dying one after another every single day from some curable ailments??!!

WHY DOESN'T ANYONE CARE ANYMORE?!?!

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you gotta tell sooner or later

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 22:09:37 GMT

So somethings (someone) been on my mind, and I just can't take it anymore so I will tell you about this person without saying there name, see if you can guess!!! We met at one of the last football games, when I first saw her I said to myself 'dear god this girls hottt, she's prolly a bizniatch but whatever its worth a try' --- typical Timmy thought :-D and we talked, we met through a mutual friend, not naming names... skip ahead a couple of days.. we started talkin, turns out she's my other half which freaked me out, but a good freak out, I learned from my friend that she likes another guy :( :( :( :( I met her once in person but talked to her many times and I'm seriously personality crushin over here. but her personality is perfect for me and i haven't found anyone like that since.... kristina buffa in my freshman year... she makes me feel so good about myself, i mean its like i can be myself around her and such... i hate crushes, did i mention that?! errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

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on a silent night like tonight, you can hear my heart break

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 05:56:59 GMT

so today was interesting, i gots in a fight with my dad for some un known reason, which is very fun. He wanted me to go up north at first then he changed it to i don't do anything around here but play guitar and listen to music, so i just let him win cause i know i do more then that.

other then that, i went out with Adya and some kid named Curt, pretty cool guy, we just drove around, but it was fun. i feel better cuz i made her laugh, which i like doing to people. kinda makes me feel better, i did the gentalmanly thing and i walked her to her door and she was all like 'your a dork'... something she didn't really need to point out, so her new nick name is caption obvious. i'm prolly gonna go over there tomorrow to teach her some guitar stuff, i gots the lesson already planed out te heheeeeeeee shit son

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uuhhhh

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 03:29:14 GMT

Would you

o =yes
x =no
~ =depends

() worry about me if you notice I'm sad?
() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me... even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?
() take a shower with me?
() let me draw something for you?
() draw something for me?
() be my gf/bf?
() have a fling with me?
() visit me if you come to my city?
() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
() take me home for the night?
() let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car karaoke with me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() let me give you a piggyback ride?
() have sex with me?
() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
() give me your mail address to be penpals?
() be scared to talk to me

hena hena hena

Fri, 26 Nov 2004 17:25:51 GMT

long time no update, sooo lets get down to buisness,shall we? well my Thanksgiving went without my grandparents presence, we could tell something was wrong, all of my family was a little uneasy mixed with alot of sorrow. its still kinda hard to believe they are gone. But anywhoo - - - why did the tomato blush? oh i'll tell you why... BECAUSE IT SAW THE SALAD DRESSING - - - get it? HAHAHAHAAAAAA yeah... i'm a dork, i really don't have anything to say so um... comment and tell me a funny or silly joke of anykind, remember i LOVE knock knock jokes and third grade stuff along with the more adult stuff, soo theres your assignment - - - take it and give me feed back bias!

i won't let this build up inside of me...

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 23:38:46 GMT

so i'm grounded... and this couldn't come at a worse time, my grandmother being dead for not even a month and i'm not allowed to go out when i need it most >:-o ticks me off, anywhoo i was talkin to a couple people this weekend and i realized i have feelings for them still...but it will never work out, and i just want someone to hold onto and for someone to hold me...nothing more nothing less...

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